I heard that you're settled down.
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".
Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Don't forget me, I beg.
Its ever so often that we forget the people who were part of our lives. Sometimes, I want to just jump out at the chance of waving at an old friend, talking to an old *ahem* interest, and even speak to a few old acquaintances.
Its a tad bit early to start talking about not forgetting at this time of the year, but I'm not talking about just a year, but in my whole lifetime, the people that I forget. The people that even though don't seem like it, do matter.
So what happens when we all move on. Let time fly past and allow ourselves to be swept with the current that our lives flows in? Do we reminisce old pictures, feelings, events? Will I get to meet anyone ever again? What happens if someone passes on? Will all that I have of that person be a name? Will I ever meet someone like you again? Its my last year in my school, and I want to make it special, for the people I've never really paid attention to.
As for those I've kind of lost. Those that I never talk to anymore. Not once, not even on festive days, there's still time to express myself to you.
I am so very stressed.
I feel like giving up, but I know why I feel so stressed. I'm procrastinating, slacking, yet making all these inspirational plans and goals that I NEVER follow! Why are resolutions meant for being unresolved? Am I destined to have unresolved resolutions since I've started to make them?
I'm a mess. Homework is piling up, and its not because I have a ton. Its because I am a dreadful mess. I am slacking. Its so weird. I try so hard to focus, but I can't. I just cannot. Or I wont?
I should ban myself from going out at all. Have a mandatory ground till my O levels are done. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! Why don't I ever prioritize right?
I have a post way back about reading a literature novel to improve my passion and love for literacy. I've never touched that book since. Its not that its boring. On the contrary, its so full of passionate literacy in all the right written ways. It should be driving me to love literacy, and thus result in my guaranteed A1 for my Literature examination. But no. My mind has to divert me to all things material.
Fashion. Beauty. and Excuses.
If only excuses could literally be burned. Then maybe I'd start to realize. I keep giving excuses, pushing my workload back, telling myself I need a break, when breaks are all I've been taking recently, including this break. But its okay, because I have a ton of excuses at the back of my head waiting to break free. NOT. I annoy myself. I REALLY DO!
So now that I've emphasized to myself what a mess I've made of myself, maybe I'm ready for the two tests I'm supposed to take tomorrow, and the ton of homework right beside me.
I guess the title does sound a bit sinister, or not. I've pretty much ditched this blog for a good whole month and a few days. I honestly did not know what to put to it, and I guess I should have a little up date on the significant events like New Year's and Christmas, but thats past, the last decade was a month ago, and we're now starting a new decade, and this calls for some changes.
I've recently got my ears pierced, and fell into the knack of goal making and of course, studying for some really major exams this year - O levels. Basically, I'm pretty stressed out.
I've basically maximised my spare 'optimistic' energy in times of crisis, and I'm running on really low battery. The tell tale signs are my sudden fatigue, and napping in the afternoons (a trip I rarely EVER take in the afternoons), binging CONSTANTLY, my growing equator and widening limbs. I'm already short as it is, but I had to turn myself into a stubby hobbit.
So basically I've recently pierced my ears (If December counts as recent), as a New Years Eve change of some sort. I was supposed to go for a scheduled appointment check up two weeks after, but of course, I bailed. Sigh, the joys of personal truancy. If that makes any sense at all. In a few days time, I'd be sticking out my hand and receiving money sealed in red packets, but the fun of all this, is the fact that I get to have fun and dress up for a family picture and all that jazz.
Singapore's really cold today. I'm practically clothed in wintery- approved outfits. (EYESORE-ful) BRIGHT NEON pink leggings which well make me feel like a grandma, and a wooly fleece jacket (WHICH I LOVE), from Uniqlo, (WHICH IS STOCK-LESS). Hah. Now no one can still the leggings and wooly fleece jacket idea, not that anyone would. It truly is an eyesore, even for myself, yet, its so comfortable lounging around in gore-awful outfits.
I am saving up my money to do things with money.
Here's a little hello to the zilch readers I have! If you're out there somewhere reading, thank you!
I've just discovered one of the most beautiful lyrical songs. Its so poetic.
My ghost
Lovers come and lovers go
Once they lived but now theyre ghosts
Walking the streets they used to know
Like shadows
People disappear
Every hour and every year
Sometimes I believe theyre here
Like shadows
Who can you trust in this place?
In whom can I put my faith?
If youre real then show me now
Who you are
How can I love without grace?
Shine a light on your face
If youre real then show me now
Who you are
Blowing like a secret wind
Pouring on my naked skin
Like a river flowing in the ocean
And when I turned to see your face
I saw a joy I could not place
Vanishing without a trace
Like a shadow in the sun
Who can you trust in this place?
Where can I put my faith?
If God is love then whys the world
The way it is?
How can I love without grace?
Shine a light on your face
If youre real then show me now
Who you are!
My ghost
I don't know how many people feel the same way I do, but when I got the wallet I've wanted for a long while, its like magic! I got the Lisa Kate Spade wallet, or at least that's what the blogshop ower said. Whatever it is, I've been wanting this particular wallet for a LONG time. I finally got it, and I feel like I'm lying in a bed of roses. Pricked by the fact I spent money, wondered by the satisfaction of getting the wallet of my dreams.
So these are a couple of pictures the owner has sent to me before I purchased it, and basically it's exactly the same, no difference at all, just that the lighting doesn't bring out the wallet's true hue of yellow which is a gentler vibrancy of yellow. This is a big switch for me as my last wallet was a long Guess wallet, and ever since I realized I grew tired of it (It was my sister's at first), I never used a real wallet for about a year. Just my important cards in a card holder, and then spare cash in my pockets or bag. It didn't really bothered me for I sincerely am picky about wallets.
When I saw this on the website in January, I immediately asked my sister (who was going to Boston then) to help me get it. Yet, to no avail, the three shops she went to did not have stock for the yellow color, and one sales lady even asked where she got the details and picture from! (Which is simply not good for a sales person) Anyway, my main point is, I finally got a pretty yellow wallet, and I know its not exactly a versatile colour, but its not a bag, so it doesn't have to match my outfit, and, I just simply love yellows recently! Even though the color is not winter appropriate, its just so bright and full of character, its almost like the sun in the midst of all the fall/winter shades.
The downside to this, is that I have to be really careful, and not stain the leather or the stain will stick.
Sidenote: You CANNOT wash your leather goods! (But I'm sure most people already know that!)
I know I've been all over music the past couple of posts, but I just have to do a writeup on this man! I don't particularly condone to constant spews of vulgarities and conventionally considered crude profanities, but Eminem, you got to love.
I remember over hearing a couple of his songs from radios and my sister browsing through music, and I just always recognized his voice. The first song I really listened to, was Mockingbird. I didn't honestly understand what the song meant till later, but it was a song I definitely never forgot. I didn't listen to him for a while, in fact, it wasn't until When I'm gone. After replaying it for a bajillion times, I pulled out every Eminem song I could find online and listened through the lyrics.
For Eminem fans, you would know that there are two sides to Eminem. Eminem - Marshall and his alter ego Slim Shady, and often mentioned character I never really understood. If I were to go on and on, I probably wouldn't finish this post, and it may turn out to be a wikipedia-like written piece, but I guess this is all opinion, and basically what I see most in Eminem.
On the surface, you can categorize his songs into two types. Shallow -Fun, or Deep -Emotional. Then when you peel that surface off, what I see, is a human being who has a fun side, and an emotional side, it is no longer just the song, (Cause to be honest, most of his raps are about his life, and I don't think it's just how wicked the rap is that we listen, because well its now our life) it is like knowing a bit of a person in yourself. Strangely put, its like there's an Eminem inside of us.
He has many beautiful emotionally drawn songs that expresses so much about his life, and I know there are various interpretations of why he raps what he raps, and why he puts out to public what he wants to, but I'd like to take my hat off to a man who lets light on a part of him, just to show that there's another human out there, who thinks the same way some of us do, feels the same way, and that its not stupid to love someone so much (Reference to song: When I'm Gone), or to feel that you've done enough for someone. As I begin to ponder over this, I start to realize that it is in the emotions that we see expressed through his songs that we like him so much. Maybe is a partial sympathy, or maybe its because we/I find some similarities to how I feel in his songs, or maybe its this subconscious sense of happiness that I don't feel that way particularly at that point in time, or maybe its just a whole load of crap I'm writing, but I can't deny the fact that it is in the emotions of his more emotional songs that I find a tinge of solace.
He puts himself out as a person we can all admire to be like. Taking our emotions and spooling it into something we can feel accomplished about. Like, taking the emotional traumas, sadness, anger, angst, and turning it into a drive to achieve something better. Maybe thats why some people, or I, like listening to the lyrics over and over again. Yes, there's some vulgarities, and I hope it doesn't influence me into acting against my principles of speaking vulgarities on a regular basis, which I sometimes do lightly, or privately, but I just can't help but love Eminem's work. For those who just would not accept listening to vulgarities, maybe try listening to the clean versions available and feel the emotions brought across, rather than the words. Take the lyrics, blank out the profanities, and see the story in every song for what it is. Maybe you'd see the poetic edge and the literal story brought across and appreciate it for what it presents, and not what you think it shows.
Many people love Slim Shady because of all the fun and carefree breeze he brings into Eminem's rap, and I do enjoy it, I really do. Its the type of upbeat songs you'd listen to when you want to feel fired up and full of fuel. He brings a lot of bounce and just a whole new Eminem out. However, I'd choose Mockingbird over anything on the fun side, and I guess its because emotions play a part too. But I'd play We Made You and Just lose it ANYTIME of the day just to get a little pumped.
Then again, Slim Shady is said to be Eminem's alter ego, and alter ego he blames for the bad things in his life. So I wonder, why is Shady still around in Em's albums? Then I watched on Jonathan Ross, that Em wasn't so happy with Relapsed either, because quote "it was really humorous and shock value... these songs on relapse weren't making me feel like those(past songs) used to" end quote. I think I understand, but I don't think I would really know what he meant, but in my interpretation, his more emotional songs, and past songs have had more impact and made more a difference than his fun and upbeat songs. I don't mean its just Emotional songs, but his past songs just had more adrenaline-pumping vibe. However, Eminem never fails to give his best, and like how he loves to write out his rap music, I think I am going to write lots of descriptive stuff just to get my writing juices flowing.
Eminem is a true legend, and what I'd like to call the MJ of rap music.
I cannot rate Eminem, because he's already a legend, and rating him is impossible because he's awesome like that!
I know the whole world knows who Bruno Mars is, or at least nearly the whole world who have access to his melodious marvels, would know him, and love his songs and music. Bruno is undoubtedly skilled in his musical gifts. Although his vocals aren't the most extraordinary, his swooning voice would lull you into L-O-V-E mode. I don't know how ANYONE can hate this guy.
I can safely say, he's pulled me to his side with his songs. Who can resist?
I believe most people have only heard of Bruno from his collaboration with artists B.o.B in Nothin' On You, and I bet, then, some people didn't even know who was singing or who was rappin'. Was this dude Bruno rapping or the singing guy. It became much more obvious who he was in his second feature in Travie McCoy's Billionaire. He is officially loved then.
He sings the wonderful melodies to their raps, and turned their songs into something people who dislike that kind of genre, into something they replay, cover and sing along to, spinning out their own versions and rapping their own lyrics. Yet, they continue to cover Bruno's part of the songs, even though he was only considered as a lending vocal to these songs, its impossible not to notice that the majority light shone on the songs were steered towards Bruno's parts.
I never looked at him twice, or bothered to google or wiki him, but after hearing everyone raving about his new song (then) Just The Way You Are, I decided to give it a chance. At first hearing, it sounded like any other pop song, but then as I begin to really LISTEN instead of just hear, I begin to like his style very much. I went on to get his latest album Doo-Wops & Hooligans, which displays his talents and versatility EXTREMELY well for a Debut album. Like the album title, Bruno delivered JUST that. Doo-Wop (A style of vocal of Rhythm and Blues) with a appropriate pinch of Pop.
I kept replaying tracks over and over. After I got nearly over it, the Bruno rush just swept me over again. Fast. My first love would have to be Grenade. A very emotional and moving song of the extend of ones love in physically painful terms. Seriously. What girl wouldn't like to know a guy is willing to die for her? The song tugged at my heart, and I immediately loved it. Very much. It reveals much truth when someone is pretty terribly in love, and that might be how to feel. It was also a heartbreak song as the lyrics begin to reveal how the love has gone to waste. I loved it to bits. When the music video came out, I nearly cried. Yes, I am quite emotional, but rarely do music videos make me cry.
I won't lie when I say I don't feel entirely comfortable with the song Our First Time, but then again, it may appeal to other people. Still, it does have a tropical feel, like I said, Nostalgic. Like an old song in the 80s brought to life with a relaxed voice. There are however MANY great tracks. In fact I LOVE his entire album, save this song.
Bruno Mars let his, I would say, wild side show on other tracks, of which my favourite one would have to be Runaway Baby. I cannot love this song enough. It begins with a strong bass, and the rest just falls perfectly into place. The song has a great beat, something you would replay over and over again. A fun song to the album and my second favourite from this great album. As I said, his versatility is shown through his different range of songs, and Runaway Baby has got to be the most fun upbeat, adrenaline rushed, heart-pumping, blood rising song in the album followed by the soulful and slightly calmer The Other Side which displays a more nostalgic beat with a bold chorus featuring the one and only Cee Lo Green! Upbeat and pure genius.
Who can resist a guy who talks to the moon (If he's thinking of you?)? In Talking to The Moon, Bruno has a more Ballad-like speed, yet the song is still very much soulful. A song you can slow dance to, Talking to the Moon is another one of my favourites, or my only favourite in the category of slow-paced, sweet and heart captivating songs with a 'nostalgic-backstreet-boys-love-songs' feel. Simply no other way to describe this but beautiful.
Another upbeat song with a funner edge would be Marry You. It sounds like a cute song any guy could play with a subtle hint to his dream girl. Something any girl would love to hear by the way! This song is simply adorable, playful and just heaps of fun to listen to. The vibe I get is almost like I'm being whisked into the 80s and 90s with a little tease. I can almost picture a guy chasing a girl down a field of flowers playfully in an almost whimsical background, almost dream-like. A very versatile for almost any occasion that has a jovial mood. I like it very much. Another song with a fun theme is The Lazy Song. It is a cute almost tropical-like song that I can envision being played at beach parties, barbecues, friendly gatherings, I can also see people going over the top having fun dancing to this song. Another fun tropical-like song would be Liquor Store Blues. Very classic feel, almost nostalgic. The lyrics are not what most people would relate to literally, but the emotion depicted in the lyrics does define moods along with the island fantasy tone to it.
Not only does this album depict love and loves' innocence, but it also has a song that is about friendship. A type of song I don't often hear, and hear lyrics about. A very simple beat and tune, but the lyrics and cute rhyming of Count on Me speaks to the masses. I often find myself in a position looking for songs to put in videos, but I never find much about friends, and therefore it ends up with limited selections of which the very popular was Graduation by Vitamin C. I think when I graduate, Count On Me is the song I'd like to play. It depicts on the simplicity of counting on a friend, the reliability and the dependence you sometimes need in a friend.
My Overall rating for the album Doo-Wops & Hooligans: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ My Overall rating for Bruno Mars: Undoubtedly Talented.
A little side note, listening to Bruno Mars may potentially cause you to fall in love with him, and even for the more reserved listeners, it may cause you to look for your own Bruno Mars = finding the perfect Mr. Darcy.
To finish of this post, I'd like to direct to the music video, and then an adorable rendition of Marry You. (:
